I was too harsh on Rob in my last entry. I think I've become so frustrated with a couple aspects of our sexual relationship that I'm losing perspective on the rest. That's not to say that the oral thing isn't still a potential deal breaker, because it is, and he's aware of this. I feel majorly taken for granted; it's time to either start learning what I need or watch me walk out the door. I also don't plan on giving him head again until I decide I can respect myself while doing it rather than feeling like a worthless blow-job machine (AKA "doormat"). But every guy has his strengths and weaknesses, his pros and cons, and all told, Rob is by far the best partner I've had, despite being the youngest and the least experienced. So though we're on shaky ground at the moment, I give him props. I hope he rises to the challenge soon.