Cock

This morning, Rob sent me a picture of his dick. (He's such a tease sometimes. ...I love it!) So far he's the only guy who's waited until after we've had sex to do so (in this case, quite a while after), which I take as one more sign of his uncommon intelligence and sexual prowess, not to mention his respect and consideration for me. A few of my guy "friends" sent me pictures while I was a virgin, and I'm still not sure what they expected in the way of a reaction. Maybe it hadn't occurred to them that I had no idea how one would feel, so how could I be turned on by simply looking? I remember one such Casanova, evidently disappointed by my lack of interest in his member, asking me, "Can't you at least imagine it being used on you?!" I couldn't seem to make him understand that nothing had ever stimulated me that way before (and I don't watch porn), so I literally had no concept of what it would be like. It seems pretty obvious, in hindsight, that these guys just wanted an ego boost. But now that I know what it can do, there are few things I love more in this world than my boyfriend's cock.

Which leads me to this often reoccurring thought: I don't understand women who refuse to give their partners head, or view it as a "chore." At the very least, I know it's one way I can always get Rob's attention and, if I feel like it, tease the living daylights out of him. But more than that, I enjoy spoiling him. I want to show him in every way I can how much I love having him in my life; going down on him frequently is just one way I let him know how much he's appreciated. I also happen to know that becuase his ex wasn't fond of the activity, he didn't get to experience it often while they were together. So it's kind of like relapse insurance. Plus, I figure the more each partner is willing to do in bed (and the more often), the less likely it is that sex will cause other problems to spring up in the relationship. I mean, aren't things complicated enough without adding a fear of sexual rejection to the mix? There's really nothing worse than discovering too late that you've fallen for a closed-minded partner. I know I didn't like giving head the first few times I tried it, but after a while - after realizing how empowering it feels to hold a man so completely at your mercy that he'll do anything to be satisfied... well, I tend to think maybe these women just haven't stuck with it long enough to see the benefits.

Anyway, now that I know for sure that he's visiting this afternoon, I should get to work tidying my room and getting ready. Since my dad and his girlfriend are also in town, I'm not sure when Rob and I will get a chance to be alone. All I know is that it's going to be one hell of a good time releasing twelve days' worth of pent-up desire on that boy. God help him!

Happy Saturday.

P.S.
Ditching religion in favor of enjoying life was seriously the best move I've ever made. I highly recommend it.